25 March 2020
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Mentally Enslaved To Pornography

Mbali moved from one relationship to another in order to feed an addiction to pornography that started when she 16 years old.

Her addiction proved to be a challenge that stole the joy from her marriage. Her first boyfriend gave her a phone which had pornographic material.

"I was already a member at the Universal Church but had not committed my life to God.

As a result I started watching people in compromising positions. I lost that phone after six months and I started fighting with my boyfriend who could not buy me another phone.

I eventually ended that relationship,” she said. In search of a man who would buy her a smart phone, Mbali dated another man after three months. I eventually ended that relationship,” she said. In search of a man who would buy her a smart phone, Mbali dated another man after three months.

“My mother found out that I had a phone and the fact that the boyfriend who bought it was a neighbour made matters worse. My mother forced me to return the phone to him and end the relationship” she said. 

The next man Mbali dated was 20 years older than her. “I never loved him. All I wanted was a phone that he kept promising me, but he never bought. I then dated his younger neighbour who also bought me a smart phone and downloaded pornographic videos.

I later found a job and I always made time to watch pornography during working hours,” she said.  Mbali’s boyfriend later married her, but her addiction to pornography affected their union badly.

“I expected the same intimacy I saw in the movies and I found it di cult to love my husband who could not emulate the people I saw. This continued until one day in 2017 when a pastor said that people who died before they were saved were going to end up in hell.

That scared me so much that I decided to change. I prayed and asked God to deliver me from my addiction and a week later I was able to delete all the videos I had. lled my mind with spiritual things such as reading the Bible and listening to gospel music.

I started accepting and loving my husband the way he is. I am now free from bondage and enjoying a joyous marriage. The freedom I have in my mind can not be compared to anything in life and it is only found in God,” said Mbali.