Unable to cope with my past mistakes
After he lost his second job, his wife and his friends, Zola felt lonely and slipped into a depression that made him suicidal.
"I led a busy life that was characterised by an excessive alcohol intake. I bought expensive clothes, expensive alcohol and had friends in high places. I could not balance my job and my busy lifestyle. I was eventually fired after working for seven years. All the friends I had left me high and dry. I felt like a loser with nothing to show for the years I had been working," he said.
Two years later Zola found another job.
"I managed to save money and got married in 2013. However, I went back to my old ways. I neglected my wife and didn't provide for her. Our marriage crumbled and we got divorced a year later. I lost my second job the same way I lost the first one. That’s when I slipped into depression and developed suicidal thoughts.
The first time, I wanted to hang myself, however, I didn't have the courage to do so. Months later I filled the bath-tub with water with the intention of drowning myself, but immediately jumped out when I started experiencing breathing problems. I lived a life of regret until I decided to attend services at the Universal Church with my mother.
I stopped drinking alcohol on the first day I went to church and I gave my life to Jesus. I partnered with someone and we are now working on a big project for transport infrastructure development. My finances improved and I have made peace with my past. Most of all, I no longer feel lonely, depressed or suicidal because God has filled my cup to the brim," said Zola.