I had anger towards my mother because she was absent from my life. I felt rejected by her. I tried to commit suicide several times. When I was seven years old, I went to a river and tried to drown myself but there was a man who stopped me.
Because of my lifestyle, I always overspent my money. I did not even see where my money was going. I was always fatigued because I would spend the whole night in a nightclub. Although I had the company of friends, I felt lost and alone.
I plunged into depression and could not sleep at night. If I managed to sleep, I had nightmares. I contemplated suicide because I felt unworthy. On the day that I had planned to commit suicide, my mother invited me to attend services in the Universal Church.